So much to say

Oh, my goodness.  There is so much to type about.  So much to say, so many feelings to sort through.  So much has happened since last June.  Our lives have dramatically changed ~ in SO MANY WAYS.  I have SO much I want to say, but I don't know if I'm ready to bare the sadness of my heart.  But I just may soon, because it may just eat me alive if I don't. 

I don't even know where to start.   I have to give a great shout out to a very sweet friend of mine, who I met on this journey; who, whether she knows it or not, her blogs and her fb friendship and words of encouragement have been a salve to my hurting heart.  She has been through SO MUCH.  And God is using her in such AWESOME ways.  Not just in my life, but in any lives she touches.  She oozes grace and i love her!  Here is the link to her blog.  If you read it, you will be touched. 


I also just want to say how much of a rock my sweet wonderful husband has been this past year.  It is awesome when bad things happen that you can just run into each others arms and just take comfort.  To just be able to laugh, cry, scream, whisper, or even just be silent together is what marriage is all about.  We have lost so much this year, but found each other in sweeter ways.  He's my answer to prayer.  I just love him so much. 

And my guys have been awesome.  Throughout this past year, I have seen and learned so much about myself.  I have found out what ways I have been wrong in how I treat my children.  I have learned new ways to mother them.  To cherish them.  To just be a more fun mom.  While still being that disciplined mom.  I am learning different ways to best raise my guys to be a servant for God. 

I'll post more later.  I won't leave you hanging for TOO long!  Promise!